Tuesday, August 28, 2007

From Stephanie

Steph sent this to me tonight and wanted me to put it up for everyone to read. I have never been more proud to call someone a pseudo-sister in my life.


I just want to take this opportunity on the night before I have surgery to thank you all. Thank you for all of your thoughts, prayers, phone calls and e-mails. I experienced a similar feeling to this when Drew was born with heart problems, but this time it’s different…this time it’s me. I can’t even begin to explain to you how powerful your prayers have been. He has heard every prayer that you have lifted up to him. I have never felt such an intimate relationship with God. This time, unlike with Drew, I’ve been able to let go and allow Him to take control. My faith has led me to let go and trust in the Almighty and I’ve been listening to him very carefully. I truly believe that there is no valley too dark for God’s sight, no place too low for the touch of His hand, no whisper too faint for the Good Shepherd’s ear, and no sickness that He cannot heal. It’s the most real feeling in the world, the most wholesome and the most peaceful. “Because the Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need!” (Psalm 23:1) For the first time in my life, I know that He is watching over me every minute of every day. He’s holding me in the palm of his hand and carrying me through what should be a difficult time. I am not afraid. I am strong and I am confident. I believe that the decisions that we’ve made up to this point are the right ones and that God will guide us through the decisions we have to make in the future. Please continue to pray for us as this isn’t easy on our family or our friends. We have many challenges and decisions that lie ahead of us. This is just the beginning of a long journey.
I also want to thank everyone that has been so helpful to us. Mom for taking such good care of Levi and picking up formula, diapers, food, etc. Kenneth and Cheryl for spoiling Drew rotten (he doesn’t even want to stay with me anymore), Chrissy and Jarad for setting up this Blog and the website with the Foundation. Marty and Trish for coming over and talking and for sharing your book. John and Robbie for mowing our yard and bringing us baked goods. Dad and Pam for the laptop so I can keep up with the Blog while I’m in the hospital and at home. And everyone else that has done anything to make our lives easier. I’ve only mentioned a few above, but we have been completely overwhelmed with kindness.
I’ll say goodnight and thank you again as I leave you with this poem. It’s been one of my favorites since I was a kid. I know the Lord is carrying me right now, I can feel Him.
Footprints in the Sand
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me." The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

9 comments:

Angie said...

Steph,
What an AWESOME message you left tonight on the blog. It is such an inspiration to read your words and to KNOW that you FEEL GOD'S presence in your life. He is such an AWESOME God!!! When mom told me that she talked with your mom last week I was just stunned to hear the news of your (at that time) lumps. You, Scott and the boys have been in my prayers ever since. I wish that I did not live up here in St. Charles and could be there for you more, but know that Kevin, Luke, Michael and I are praying for you daily. I am so proud to be your cousin, you have been through some major adversity in the last few years, but have always seem to be so upbeat. I will call in a couple of weeks when I know that you are feeling better. Good luck tomorrow and get better soon.

In Him,
Angie

Natalie said...

Steph,
It is so comforting to us to know that you feel strong and confident and lifted by the Lord. "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble" -Psa. 46:1
We are praying for you and your family today and everyday.
Love,
Jeremy-Natalie

Abbey Vogt said...

Coach Phillips,
I do not know you very well, but I am a sister in Christ. I have been hearing about your cancer the past week and just found out about this website this morning. I just wanted you to know that I have been praying for you as you go through surgery, and for Him to give you the strength during recovery. I, like you, have two small children and cannot fathom the impact this has on your boys, I have been lifting them up in prayer as well. It is amazing to see how He works through us to help others. Just know that a lot of us here at Nixa High School are thinking and praying for you and your family. Remember, He never gives us anything we can't handle. Keep fighting and be patient with him and your recovery.

Yours in Christ,

Abbey Vogt (Nixa High School Girls--former--B-ball Coach)

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AGparent said...

Stephanie,
Your drawing your strength from the ultimate source and your courage is making an impact on more people than you know. You've been dedicated in prayer by our family. We pray for this experience to be a transformation in all the lives that you come in contact with. You are loved and we thank you for your example in these trying times. I personally am pray that you, Scot,Drew, and Levi be blessed.
I pray for your healing as well as for Levi's ear, and that the provisions for your family will come timely and in abundance.

Paul, Bev, Alicia, and Alex

Allan said...

Steph,

I hope all went well with the surgery this morning. Your drive, dedication, and faith you displayed as a player and coach continues to show as you battle this opponent as well. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.

Allan Liggett

Jan Fielding said...

Steph, You don't know me, but I work with Connie and I just wanted you to know that you are in our prayers. We will add you to the Bowerman prayer list. Jan Fielding

Cindy Thompson said...

Steph,
I just found out about everything through Natalie yesterday and wanted to let you know my family is praying for you and yours. I know it has been years since we have talked but you are in my thoughts.

Cindy(Jones)Thompson

Sheila said...

Steph,

we are thinking of you day after day, hour after hour, and it is hard to stop because i have just noticed how sirouse cancer is. in fact the new thing that i am trying to get started at school is the Cancer Ribbon. me and my friends write it on our papers, hands, and just about anything that we are aloud to write on. one teacher why i wrote it on my paper and i said because i love someone and want every body to know that. She looked at me with a suprised look on her face and said who? i said my aunt steph. and i love her very much. She said how sweet and walked away. well i think god that you are doing better. and that kidney use it with wise you have know idea what good use it is. well i dont know you might i know i dont. With love and prayrs,
Hunter